7 mile run, started great, 62 & sunny then boom, drizzle, then pouring THEN Tornado sirens started going off, but kept running, wanted to be able to enjoy a glass of wine guilt free...LOL!!! Not a fan of running in pouring rain, felt like a wet dog and im sure looked like one too.:o)

Did Kenpo X, loved it!! so much more fun when Im better at it! LOL!! Not the most coordinated person so in the past I had to stop and pause until I was able to get some of the sequences down...LOL!!!! That's why I love running, ya just put one foot in front of the other for a long time....=)

Went to bed sick last night, woke up sick, juiced greens all day, was dying to work out but 'made' myself chill out, won't lose any benefits from missing a day, I am soooo in workout mode and loving it I hate to miss!!! Though trying HARD to Honor my body....LOVE.LOVE.LOVE thyself!

Following the program so did a dvd I have not done in 3 weeks, AMAZED at how much stronger I was, this thing really works! That was a very pleasant surprise to my day.Big :o)!!

Ran for 2 hrs. and 20 mins. LOVED EVERY MINUTE!!, sun was shining, people were waving, swear ~ people in St.Loius are SO dang nice! =) Oh, also stopped to pet the most adorable St.Bernard and it's Pup! What a Great day!!! Can't believe how much I love running!!

Rest day- and soo enjoyed every minute, yet I still missed working out, just really love to start my day moving, Long run tomm. terribly excited about it!! Need to run off some of those Christmas treats =)

Between all the festivites I managed to get a 4mile run in on Christmas, sure helped to keep me balanced the rest of the day ~ a perfect Christmas day run ~ such a simple but beautiful blessing~

Never thought I would be SO EXCITED to go to the gym, had a blast, ran intervals on the treadmill for 20 mins. then intervals on the elliptical for 45!! LOVED every minute. Guess I really need to keep changing it up!! What a difference....can't wait to go back!

Had a great weight training w/out, only negative, had carparl tunnel for 3 yrs. so my wrists are weak/painful so can make pull ups and push ups very challenging. Think I am going to buy some bands instead, the pain is not worth it and leaves my feeling discouraged when I can lift as much. No room for discouragement at this point. Love how empowered I feel after lifitng, such a great high! :o)

My what a good nights sleep can do! Feel much better, GREAT w/out, plyometrics, my current fave. Food is great. Finally noticing my clothes getting looser and energy really increasing. Felt really "off" for a while there, it's all about the food and keeping it clean. Nice to feel totally back on track, mentally,emotionally and physically. Such a blessing ~

Didn't sleep at all!!! Woke up with blaring headache and nauseated all day, tried to w/out my body was not having it. I finally gave in and stopped! Duh! looking forward to sleeping and tomorrows w/out.:o)

Great am w/out- weights then pm w/out - ran 3 miles pushing 40pds of a little one- "huge challenge let me tell you!!! LOL!", I was literally 'grunting' up the hills....LOL!!!! :o) But we made it, she was sacked out 1/2 way- so sweet!!

Wonderful day of rest- aahhhh!! lovely!! Rejuvenated! from running! Sure pays off when you do something you truly LOVE!

Ran for 1:45, half the distance but really tried to pick-up the pace ~ I "tried" LOL!!, but was really hard! had Fun though.:o)

Ran for 2 hours and 22 minutes, all hills, sincerely wanted to die!!! Total head game. Was determined to run the route then turn around and head back - didn't think I was going to make it!! Also, did not have enough fuel in my body- had no intention of running for soooo long - just was so enjoying being outside and RUNNING!! Loved it!

BIG Decision - Work out @ 6 or get 10 hrs.of zzzzzz's ??? Clearly I chose the latter and have FELT amazing, nothing like a great night's sleep!! Though missed my morning endorphin kick, forsure!! I just feel better when I begin the day moving my body. Going to attempt a run tomm., they have a lot of black ice here, though I NEED to get outside and run some miles!! cabin fever..

Super work out, then cardio after, then Ab Rippper - I was whipped after. Great food, no sugar..Great!!!

Great W/out!!! still craving a run, BAD, but people in MO don't seem to use salt on the sidewalks, LOL! so afraid of a wipe-out, the set back would kill me!! They don't get much snow here usually so I can't blame um'.

worked out..so not into it,wasn't the best w/out but I did it ~much more excited about plyometrics tomm. feeling depressed and discouraged, all part of this journey, trying to roll with it!! trying to identify why I want eat at night, foods that I know are absolutely horrible for me and my body. Well, 2nd thought, I never had ANY unhealthy food in my house, here there is, suppose outta sight outta mind really workd for me. Trying to be conscious and aware, only way that I will work thru my issues!! That's my goal right now. :o)

2 days, no w/out, just wasn't up for it, BLAH!! back at it Mon. at 6am. FORSURE!!

Took today as a rest day ~ frankly, didn't feel like doing anything - just so sad about Oliver passing, will stop feeling sorry for myself tomm....then back at it!!

Rough day, my 10 mon. old kitten died today of feline lukemia, took him in bcause he was just not himself, the vet said he would not survive the night... shocked and heart broken i was insanely craving comfort food but did not want to blow my eatting, I "allowed" myself a couple of my fave CChip cookies (then gave to the neighbors) and that was that! Great am w/out, life happens, just trying to roll with the punches as opposed to against them. Usually would have eatten comfort food all night, so I am happy for loving myself thru the pain - instead of literally eatting my way thru.

A lean, mean bean pole- that's what I should be after and 1 hour and a 1/2 of intense yoga ~ unfortunately not so much....lol!! Think I may need to increase my food, something is off, so physcially depeleted...need to investigate that asap! Have been unable to run this entire week but starting this weekend my sched. changes, can barely wait..... I SOoo need to run!!!

2 w/outs today. eating clean & feeling better.

Did plyometrics for 1st time, holy cow!! Difficult!!!!!!! Hard on my joints but can only get better the lighter I get :o))) What a challenge!!!...plugging along, doing the "one day at a time thing" - would who have thunk!...lol!

2 w/outs today, feel a bit better. looking inward frankly blows ~ but gotta do the work to get the results right?

My MIND must Prevail or I simply will NOT!! Hitting my "issuses" of not "deserving" to be thin, happy & healthy! Between the crying and reading Woman, Food and God I am praying for continued patience while I release excess emotional baggage AKA = Fat. THIS IS BLOODY HARD right now!!!!! DANG!!!!

With week '4' comes "2" 'stretch' days! Thank you God!! Although I secretly missed w'ing/out...:o) LOL!!

Me Woman, hear me ROAR!! LOL!! :o) Super w/out! KenpoX- Lots of kicks & punches - feel so empowered when I do that video! LOL!!!! :o)

*Awesome w/out, So sore- love it!! So amazed at the condition of my body in only 4 weeks. *It gets EASIER yet SO MUCH HARDER!!! at the same time - Just 'happy' that I truly LOVE this journey! Totally struggled w/ wanting to eat over an emotional situation I am dealing with, THEN thought of ya'll, I have your support & can just walk away knowing I will not "DIE" (LOL!! -swear it feels that way sometimes..lol!) and wake up tomm. feeling great that I did not give in!!!! =)

The exercise part is easy for me, it's the "coping with out using food as my crutch"~ that is SO HARD for me!!!!!! Dang!!

Home~Settled and ready for "New Week 4", a bit more intense + adding in more cardio to shed a few xtra pds. for Christmas!! Will be very fun!!

*Lost 20pds.* HooRay!!!! took longer than anticipated but I 'll take it!! Still have more to go but feeling good! Struggling with my emotions as my body tries to adjust to Natural supplementation for Bi-Polar. VERY HARD!!!! Really believe I bit off more than I can chew but determined to see it to the end!! My body is trying desparetly to find balance...Depression is looming over me like NEVER BEFORE, EVER! which is alarming but believe I am on the right path so just goin to keep trusting in God & plugging along.

Worst Thanksgiving ever!! Home alone, but would rather that then deal w/ stupid family drama! Life's to dang short to be miserable!!!!! But I DID NOT eat because of my emotions~ *HUGE*!!!! Ran 6 miles instead... :o)))!!

UGH!! ~ Ate some "UTTER CRAP!!!" do to stress!! (that excuse is frankly gettin old!! workin on that ~ really!! ) SOOO... Got my video in and the a run, on flat ground must say I really enjoyed that and noticed how much faster I am !! Big YAY!!! Just raided Wholefoods for as many healthy holiday options as I could find!!..Yum!

Brought my weights and DVD's home to enusre I stay on track!! Anxious being out up rooted- again, but just goin to go with the flow & have fun w/ my Family!!!! My *only* focus at home, work out & eat as clean as possible~ just enjoy!!

Can't believe how much my stamina has changed in 3 weeks~ feel like wonder woman!!

Stressful day so went for a long run..70's and sunny, ran right smack into a horse farm, anyone who knows me knows HORSES are my Ultimate PASSION, I cried like a baby I was SOOO happy.=) LOL!! It was so great to pet the horses and feed them grass ~ made my day! Pure BLISS!!!!

noggin

Not feeling well :o( so took today as rest day. :o)

*Best w/out to date w/P90X legs, back and AB Ripper AMAZINGLY HARD but "GREAT!!!!!"

2 work outs: yoga - am & 1hr. of running hills - pm. GREAT!!!! Boy ~ I sure LOVE to run:o)!!!

* The scale moved!! - down, thankfully :o) 2 more lbs.! It's about time..LOL!! :o) Finally noticing my body shifting again, clothes fitting better, it's all good.

In 3rd month of personal challenge, feeling great!!, struggling to hit 20 pd. mark!! taking longer than expected but that's ok. :o) Finally feeling back into my groove since move here to St.Louis. Posting new pics soon. Thanks for all the support!! :o)

Week 2 - YAY! Can't believe how much I enjoy P90X! Great w/out today.....very happy!:o)

Ironically I was dying to go for a run but couldn't because it's day 7 & REST Day! I tinkered with doin it but knew in the end it would only backfire on me. Program says rest so rest it is!!!! :o)

Scale is NOT moving--- UGH!! I know all about water weight, body shifting, muscles weighs more......all that stuff, but I DON'T care, LOL!!!:-)))!!!! Just bloody move already!!LOL!! :o) I'm bustin' my BUTT!!! Trying to b patient, it's just TOUGH at times!!! :( Great W/out--- KenpoX!! Rest day ARRIVES!! =)

*Only one more day then REST!! so very xcited!!!! So glad that I am doin this in the privacy of my own home!!! LOL!! Sure- I can run 9 miles- lovin' every minute ~ this is a WHOLE DIFFERENT STORY!! LOL!!!!!! Feel like a tellatubbby!!!! Love that I can "feel" my body working with every excerise...great:o))!!

Can barely wait to do legs & back tomorrow and AB Ripper...it's Killer,LOL!! Though I have taken it back a bit because being so sore that I can't workout is simply silly, sooo trying to break into it gently.....I say it but never do it!! LOL!:o))

DAY 3 - Had to stretch ALL DAY long...sooo sore, so funny, but Great!! :o)

So very xcited to be trying something new, always up for a new challenge and P90X is just that!!! So hard but so worth it!! I swear~ I finish a work-out and I walk taller.....so dog-gone proud that I did it!! Life  is Great, "firmly" back on track, this last time I fell hard but have not felt to this focused since moving here!! 

Getting up and reviewing goals and doing the same at night  really helps me.....feels really good to be back in the game; mentally, physically and emotionally!! Just keep thinking about the END result......

Feel Great,   Look Great,   Have an abundance of Energy and Mental CLARITY!! a crazy clear focused head!!  Most of all I want to find my true authentic self, I am finally beginning to emerge, very slowly but hey, that's okay!!!  Better late than never....=)!!

Day 2 DOWN!! we can barely move, DOMS Bigtime!! LOL! Only 88 more days, so focused and so xcited!!

I am finally BACK ON TRACK 150% !! It's great having a workout buddy, especially being my Sis. We both have run marathons and done a triathlon so we KNOW we both can "push well beyond our struggle point" so I am planning for AMAZING RESULTS!! So xcited!! Foods been great, loving every moment!

So blessed and So thankful.
  
                 * Thanks so much for the support ~

Day 1 DOWN!!! Did P90X in am then went for a great run in a short sleeve tshirt!! Love it!!

This weather is wonderful!! Food was great today. did my visualisation, then reviewed my goals in am as I will tonight, so helpful!! :o)))

* Mon. at 4:45 am I will begin "Day 1" of PX90 !! I have been doin it on and off, wanted to wait unitl I was ready to fully commit..

......................WELL- I'M READY!!I want to always stack the odds in my corner to be as successful as possible......I am so lucky~ my sister has agreed to give it a try for at least..3 weeks.I know that after 3 weeks the weight will be falling OFF and her energy will be soaring so she will keep at it!!! all the way to day 90!!!!  I know my sis and she will not QUIT!!!!! Were Cauley's and were Irish so we DO NOT QUIT!!!! EVER!!!! SO XCITED!!!!  This is going to be a great experience with my sister!!  :o)))

* "Love thyself" my new mini-mantra, need to shut up and just do it!!......Not feeling well, which tends to proceed feeling overwhelmed and off track...

I have been justifying my "being off" to the stress of my quick move. With that being said I am also making a 'Huge' effort to not beat myself up for every little setback that I have, because in reality that's all it is really - a setback. Instead I am choosing to use this time as an opportunity to reassess my goals and make any changes necessary to get back on track.  I have not been reviewing my goals daily as I did in MI, which is crucial for my success as well as visualisation, always has been always will. Need to stick with what works...duh! :o)

*"Love thyself" - need to shut up and just do it!!

So off schedule, mind, body, all of it~ can barely wait for am to run some hills..

It's been Ruff!! Foods Crazy BUT still running and P90X. My saving Grace right now!!

I was Anorexic ~ just under 5"8 and 107 lbs. PURE HELL......

I have been watching the advertisements for Oprah's upcoming show with Portia D'Rossi and her struggle with Anorexia that aired today.  I have gotten physically sick every time I watched the previews because I have unfortunately walked that path as well! It was a VERY DARK TIME!! I don't know how else to explain it! I would NEVER wish that on anyone, not even my worst enemy ( sure hope I don't actually have an enemy:))  It was as if someone else had taken over my body........seeing Oprah was cathartic because it's incredibly hard to explain to someone who has not been there, they all think you nuts!! As my family did as well.  I burned all my pictures a few years ago, a way to "release" my past, though sometimes things like that show just bring me right back to those days of incredible pain and sickness.  It was literally Hell on Earth!!! I cried almost the entire show and had the chills the rest of the time. I am so thankful that people have begun at least talking about it more....So needed to just put that out there....as I have gotten SO MANY  responses by people having themselves or have known of someone with Anorexia or Bulimia. I just wanted to address it in some way.....but that's all I can say right now......it's very hard to even think about and not feel the weight of the experience pull me down..

So eager for Halloween to be over..candy everywhere!

I am usually not bothered by "candy" except I am feeling abnormally challenged at the moment!  LOL!! I have hid every ounce of it at home, sometimes~ I swear, it is calling my name. A long bike ride proved helpful in relaxing my mind & body! I love biking, what a GREAT change!!

There is SUGAR everywhere and remember, that's my "crack"!!!

Initially, when I walked in and saw junk food eveywhere I must say I kinda "mentally freaked out!!" In Michigan, we kept no sugar in the house which really made my life much easier! "Out of sight out of mind" really helps/works for me, ALOT!!!!!  So today I have been super stressed, while Sophia, my 3 yr.old niece, is away for the weekend, I have yet to unpack because my sis left on a business trip to Mexico right away.  So, with much to do and my headaching I sat on the couch and eventually, did it,YES!! I ate this small bag of choc.chip muffin mix. (and yes, it was a child's portion) thank you God!! Idid taset good, though I sat there after I ate some raw mix then 3 tiny muffins and thought......what is up?????  I sat and realized I am STRESSED!! I have so many things happening so very quickly.  I need to just STOP!! I wanted to go mountain biking but its too windy, really, it is!!  I decided to sit down and pray and be still for Pete's sake...Food is so very tempoary.   I have a health issuse that is really concerning me right now, I am uncertain with exactly what it is, which has left me very scared, that is why I ate those muffins.  Bad choice,  yes, but lesson learned. I promptly called my Uncle who is a Dr.to start on my path of understanding. So good lesson, now going tomake a green juice and relax. New day tomorrow, mountaining biking and healthy choices  ! Thank you God for this mini- growth spurt..

Having a great time..great food...great work-outs :)

i dont have any internet access at this moment so doing this through a friend of mine's computer remotely.

Coming off Bipolar meds, moved, major shifts!!!!.....considering all

that I am TERRIBLY PROUD OF MYSELF!! Have been unable to run, which as you know, is Huge for me. Though doin it first thing Mon. am......My food has been VERY GOOD!!! I was pretty concerned considering I ALWAYS blow- it when I am traveling, it's my Free pass to chow!! Instead I brought all my yummy food in a bag, which was sooo easy, suppose I really want it more than ever and am willing to take the extra....Whopping "5 mins." to prepare. In the past 5 mins.evidently that was WAYYY  too long!!LOL!!!! :o)))))

*Reality check, how ridiculous is not wanting to take a" few minutes" to pack healthy options for a road trip!! It's our friggin' bodies for Pete's sake, sooo SAD when ya think about it~ ya know.

Feeling, well, Crazy at this point, my mind & body is just off because of the sudden changes.

Though I am VERY surprised at how well my food is!! In the past, all of this would have been down the drain~ FORSURE~! Its just not worth it to me, at all!!! Thank you God for that.!!  Very relieved that I am leaving in 6 hours, so eager to get settled and go running.... I know at this point my body needed to REST! Too much going on mentally and physically. I needed to Honor that.  And, surprising as well, I have not been beating myself up for it....THAT'S THE FIRST TIME............Uh.......EVER!!! So I am feeling great about not gaining any weight although I have not exercised in like 4 days and have had to relax my diet because I have been struggling to eat because I am SOO emotional that NOTHING sounds good, at all!!

Considering I am under HUGE stress, suprisingly ~ my food has been pretty good but REALLY miss my w/outs, excited to get settled in St. Louis then resume :o))

Hurt heal STILL 2 days no cardio!!!! UGH!!, that's my Saving Grace!! So feel like I am goin crazy, think I might hit Bally for some elliptical tomm.!! I need it soo bad for my Mental Stabililty bcause of this quick move!!

trying hard to not "stress eat" but doin well. cant wait to w/out tomm. hopefully no pain!

Great day, back on track....though my body is SCREAMING for more sugar...

Having been off it for a few weeks my body was SCREAMING in happiness at how Magically Wonderful it felt. Then ENTER School Weekend, ate horribly so I can EXPECT to have cravings for the next few days....just not fun but hey, it could be worse, right! Had a great 9 1/2 mile run, injured my heal on the last
 1 1/2 mile left. Had to call on a friend  to pick me up as I did not want to hurt it more.:o)

Despite a cooler filled to the brim with super clean food I barely cracked it open all weekend

I knew I would struggle with my new decision to move to St. Louis but didn't know this much! Had school in Ann Arbor all weekend and stayed at a hotel with my Gal Pal/ and FAVORITE fellow student and just let loose in the food department.  I just did not have the energy to think, I just wanted immediate comfort...  Food that I would normally NEVER touch was arriving at the door via delivery man!!!(You know that can't be good!!)  Crazy! Felt sick emotionally and physically after eating junk food, and woke up with a face covered red blotchy bumps and HUGE bags under my eyes.....The difference this time around is that I have been so loving and FORGIVING of myself and my poor choices.  I simply determined to get up early tom. am and go for a long peaceful run, can barely wait actually! I know it was only a minor set-back, whereas before I would have been on a week long binge......ahh! Change is Grand!! I LOVE ME!! The support has been so well, WONDERFUL!! Thanks so much everyone..!

At school for the weekend..just having fun!!!

My worst day yet..SUGAR BINGE!! :o(

Had to make some HUGE decisions today which always sets me up for a sugar binge of some kind...I found myself at the store munchin' on a Hershey Bar and buying chocolate chip cookie mix with my neighbor, though I must admit, she really wanted cookies so I didn't say no!! Usually if I am going crazy for something I head on down to 1of my 3 fave health stores for a healthier option but it was too late and I was near melt-down stage.  I needed to decide in a matter of hours if I was going to up root myself and move to St.Louis to help my sister, 10 hours away from my colonics, family, friends and my running partner & dog!! Huge decision!!! I am the first to say I get stressed rather easily and against the clock is even worse....So I downed some cookies and a choc. bar and I must say I felt sick and depressed about it! I have been working soooo hard!!!. Usually I would throw in the towel and binge all night and next day but this time it stops here! My face already looks yucky, I can guarantee tomorrow my face will blow up like a blow fish and have red splotches on it from the sugar, ugh! But I bought healthy, clean food for the weekend at school so tomorrow begins a new day. I didn't run today either!! I know that's a trigger~ when stress hits I NEED to run or workout!!! That's how I "work through" things. The food really did not taste worth how heavy and bloated I feel and it has only been 2 hours.  No self-loathing, no time for that.. I made my decision, I am moving to St.Louis because I need to support my family right now! Done, decision made! Now I can begin packing, I leave in 1 week.....:o)!!

Missed my run, ugh!! Busy day w/big decisions so no appetite..not the norm.

LOST 5 more pds. = 15 lbs total!!!!

It always comes off rather effortlessly for me in the beginning, as with most people, so I expect it to slow down considerably after this next month. My GOAL is 15 lbs. this month, so 10 more. Then 10 thereafter until I reach my goal which is May 1st. I am really enjoying my workouts, since I LOVE to run and LOVE my dog Rocky, it's a WIN/WIN situation. :o)))) forsure!

LOST 5 more pds....for good!! :o) that's 15 lbs. to date.

Have been feeling very well, having energy to do my work-outs, have been experiencing some depression as I expected. Usually the cure for me is a nice long run or journaling....though running ususally wins. I am trying to gently begin the real 'hard work' of diggin' down deep to unravel the emotions and issuses that have gotten me to where I am today.  In the past I have always been VERY BLACK and WHITE though such restriction usually backfires in the end. Gotta keep learning from my mistakes.  My sweet Gramp always said to me "as long as your stumbling going UP the hill your doing just fine." So I will take my 15 pds. lost~ not for granted, but as an inspiration that I know how to do it and just keep doin' it over and over againg!  ONLY 65lbs. more to go. Sure sounds better than 80~ Right!! :o))

Not feeling well hence not hungry, at all...early night.

Some day's it's just super easy, and today was one of those days! Great w/out. Thank you God! :o)

Some day's it's just super easy, today was one of those days, great w/out!!! :o)

Great day! Great run! Today was easy. Gotta love those days.

Lesson in "Self-Sabatoge"...Cider Mill.......

A friend just happened to pop over unexpectedly wanting to go the FORBIDDEN "Cider Mill", for an 1hr. and 1/2 I tossed it around in my head to go or not to go, back and forth. I finally agreed to go though would have a different approach. Usually I ONLY went to go because I LOVED the cider and YUMMY doughnuts. This time I really focused on  the atmosphere and my lovely company! It worked oddly enough! I walked around, noshed on the most beautiful Honey crisp ever, the cute guy behind the counter gave it to me for free, I asked again, "are you sure" he said " absolutely!" so nice!! ( he was pretty hot if I may say so myself...:o)) we then sat outside watching the ducks, horse rides and busy bees that drove us inside. Had a few small doughnuts and cider and then made like a banana and split:o). VERY soon after I rang my Father to ask if he would like the remainder of the cider and doughnuts, I wanted them as far from me as possible. So off to his house we were to unload the remainder of the stash!! Though it only took maybe 5 minutes from eating a doughnut and I was SICK as a DOG!!! They are sssooooooooo greasy and I never eat anything greasy, EVER, except for last year when I came here and got sick.....really. Long story short, I had BIG plans for today that I put off again because I came home and laid around all day because I was so sick! In the end realized it was my way of sabotaging my success. So no more. I will be up late completing the tasks I so easily Blew Off for a quick bite of yummy doughnuts!! Lesson Learned!

Rest day!! Was DYING for "anything UNhealthy" so I.......

basically ate "way too many veggies, still over-eatting, I just wanted to stuff my emotions, so I did!!! I was not up for "trying to figure out why I was emotionally eatting". I just didn't feel like it frankly. Which is what got me here in the first place. I have DECIDED to NOT beat myself up as I usually do and be Happy that I did NOT binge on Sugar, my hands down FAVE!!  So no self-hatred makes for a nice change & nice day! :o)

Struggling with organization- which is a direct paralle to my life.

As I continue to clarify my goals I notice that I am constantly sabatoging myself with clutter. I have read enough and common sense tells me I need to eliminate the clutter in my life to really get to the bottom of my issuses and what has kept me fat. My car which is usually pretty neat looks like a bomb went off and it irrates me to no end to open my door everyday, so.............tomorrow is "clean my car day". The thing is I KNOW I will feel soo much better after, interesting how I postpone things I KNOW while MAKE me feel better. Just acknowledging is a great starting point....

Getting "healthy" means 'Releasing' unhealthy food AND unhealthy people.....

As I am determined to end the vicious cycle of my past I realize how important it is to let go of certain foods, for me, SUGAR  is at top of my list. As far as people, it's people who are negative in any way.  I have such huge aspiration's for my life and it's SO easy to get pulled down by others', not on purpose of course, it's just them being themselves...no judgement at all.  I see so clearly how easy I can get into a rut and considering I am just coming into a month I need to be supported by family and friends, and *facebook Friends* everyone has helped immensely. (Thank you!!) Though now I have begun to "let go" of people who do not share my desire to become better, in every facet of my life and most of all those who love and create DRAMA.  I want happy, healthy, successful people, friends, coworkers by my side. It's hard!! I have a few people in my life that want to stay unhappy, unhealthy and complain about everything and it just brings me down...... I want and desire amazing people to walk by my side, I suppose you need to "let go of the old in order to bring in the new."

So as the Jefferson's say....."I'm movvvingg on up!!!"

Felt like I was hit by a Mac truck, all a part of detoxing, layed around and slept all day. Physically wiped out.

Great run with Rocky, feel great being off the "Sugar", I can think clearly again! Working out is my Salvation in so many ways.

still sick. feel like a 4 on a scale of 1-10. enough said. hitting the sheets.

Sick as a Dog, Day 3- Toilet ~here I come.....

I should have known better, whenever "I" begin a cleanse, this big, I always lose my desire to eat, it's more of an emotional thing. NOT GOOD when your doing a detoxl like mine! So have been having MAJOR detoxs pangs, for relief I went to work and did an Infared Sauna, then found myself running upstairs, only to vomit 5x's. Holy Cow-JUST made it!. I must say I felt better after. Then I gave myself a colonic (the best way to get the largest amount of toxins out of your body and I had them coarsing thru my veins). Soon after I was feeling better but still exhausted.  I have been struggling to get anything inside my body and am focusing on getting water and electrolytes in my system at this point. Emergen-C does the trick quicly, I was out of cocunut water, :o( I have been resting all day & struggling to stay awake to ensure a good nights sleep. Going to lay off the off the supplements for a day to try and get my appetite going... tomorrow will be better, I just know it....

Not my IDEAL first day...

Was up til 3:00 am after a long weekend in Ann Arbor at school and was wiped out so my body resisted any thought of moving this am.  I tend to get emotionally exhausted right before anything "big" and putting up pic's of me in a bikini for the world to see was BIG!! So have been resting and nibbling on veggies as I have no appetite, it should return tomorrow once I am over the shock of what I did! LOL!!

Tomorrow is the BIG DAY!!!!!

Well here it is to the many who have been patiently waiting!! Thank you !!
 It's Sunday night and I am excited to finally get this going, onward and upward! I am determined to release my past, no more being FAT!! Having no judgement, being overweight just does not serve me and my Higher Purpose.  I am so READY so here it goes...........

before and after

                Before                           Now.. Yikes :o)

                                                                                                          

            Not long ago...                    Never to return...