My experience....in a nutshell. My weight was never an issue until I was sexually abused at a hospital prior to surgery as a child, later I was molested as a teenager, as an adult I was raped. As a result I have had serious 'Body Issues' when I was thin I was HURT, when I was FAT I was SAFE, it was my protection, my insulation and shield from Pain. Yo Yo dieting has been my life... I want my Life back and I would love for you to come along for the journey...
Friday, December 31, 2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Had a great weight training w/out, only negative, had carparl tunnel for 3 yrs. so my wrists are weak/painful so can make pull ups and push ups very challenging. Think I am going to buy some bands instead, the pain is not worth it and leaves my feeling discouraged when I can lift as much. No room for discouragement at this point. Love how empowered I feel after lifitng, such a great high! :o)
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
My what a good nights sleep can do! Feel much better, GREAT w/out, plyometrics, my current fave. Food is great. Finally noticing my clothes getting looser and energy really increasing. Felt really "off" for a while there, it's all about the food and keeping it clean. Nice to feel totally back on track, mentally,emotionally and physically. Such a blessing ~
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010
Ran for 2 hours and 22 minutes, all hills, sincerely wanted to die!!! Total head game. Was determined to run the route then turn around and head back - didn't think I was going to make it!! Also, did not have enough fuel in my body- had no intention of running for soooo long - just was so enjoying being outside and RUNNING!! Loved it!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
BIG Decision - Work out @ 6 or get 10 hrs.of zzzzzz's ??? Clearly I chose the latter and have FELT amazing, nothing like a great night's sleep!! Though missed my morning endorphin kick, forsure!! I just feel better when I begin the day moving my body. Going to attempt a run tomm., they have a lot of black ice here, though I NEED to get outside and run some miles!! cabin fever..
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
worked out..so not into it,wasn't the best w/out but I did it ~much more excited about plyometrics tomm. feeling depressed and discouraged, all part of this journey, trying to roll with it!! trying to identify why I want eat at night, foods that I know are absolutely horrible for me and my body. Well, 2nd thought, I never had ANY unhealthy food in my house, here there is, suppose outta sight outta mind really workd for me. Trying to be conscious and aware, only way that I will work thru my issues!! That's my goal right now. :o)
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
Rough day, my 10 mon. old kitten died today of feline lukemia, took him in bcause he was just not himself, the vet said he would not survive the night... shocked and heart broken i was insanely craving comfort food but did not want to blow my eatting, I "allowed" myself a couple of my fave CChip cookies (then gave to the neighbors) and that was that! Great am w/out, life happens, just trying to roll with the punches as opposed to against them. Usually would have eatten comfort food all night, so I am happy for loving myself thru the pain - instead of literally eatting my way thru.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
A lean, mean bean pole- that's what I should be after and 1 hour and a 1/2 of intense yoga ~ unfortunately not so much....lol!! Think I may need to increase my food, something is off, so physcially depeleted...need to investigate that asap! Have been unable to run this entire week but starting this weekend my sched. changes, can barely wait..... I SOoo need to run!!!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Thursday, December 2, 2010
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