At school for the weekend..just having fun!!!

My worst day yet..SUGAR BINGE!! :o(

Had to make some HUGE decisions today which always sets me up for a sugar binge of some kind...I found myself at the store munchin' on a Hershey Bar and buying chocolate chip cookie mix with my neighbor, though I must admit, she really wanted cookies so I didn't say no!! Usually if I am going crazy for something I head on down to 1of my 3 fave health stores for a healthier option but it was too late and I was near melt-down stage.  I needed to decide in a matter of hours if I was going to up root myself and move to St.Louis to help my sister, 10 hours away from my colonics, family, friends and my running partner & dog!! Huge decision!!! I am the first to say I get stressed rather easily and against the clock is even worse....So I downed some cookies and a choc. bar and I must say I felt sick and depressed about it! I have been working soooo hard!!!. Usually I would throw in the towel and binge all night and next day but this time it stops here! My face already looks yucky, I can guarantee tomorrow my face will blow up like a blow fish and have red splotches on it from the sugar, ugh! But I bought healthy, clean food for the weekend at school so tomorrow begins a new day. I didn't run today either!! I know that's a trigger~ when stress hits I NEED to run or workout!!! That's how I "work through" things. The food really did not taste worth how heavy and bloated I feel and it has only been 2 hours.  No self-loathing, no time for that.. I made my decision, I am moving to St.Louis because I need to support my family right now! Done, decision made! Now I can begin packing, I leave in 1 week.....:o)!!

Missed my run, ugh!! Busy day w/big decisions so no appetite..not the norm.

LOST 5 more pds. = 15 lbs total!!!!

It always comes off rather effortlessly for me in the beginning, as with most people, so I expect it to slow down considerably after this next month. My GOAL is 15 lbs. this month, so 10 more. Then 10 thereafter until I reach my goal which is May 1st. I am really enjoying my workouts, since I LOVE to run and LOVE my dog Rocky, it's a WIN/WIN situation. :o)))) forsure!

LOST 5 more pds....for good!! :o) that's 15 lbs. to date.

Have been feeling very well, having energy to do my work-outs, have been experiencing some depression as I expected. Usually the cure for me is a nice long run or journaling....though running ususally wins. I am trying to gently begin the real 'hard work' of diggin' down deep to unravel the emotions and issuses that have gotten me to where I am today.  In the past I have always been VERY BLACK and WHITE though such restriction usually backfires in the end. Gotta keep learning from my mistakes.  My sweet Gramp always said to me "as long as your stumbling going UP the hill your doing just fine." So I will take my 15 pds. lost~ not for granted, but as an inspiration that I know how to do it and just keep doin' it over and over againg!  ONLY 65lbs. more to go. Sure sounds better than 80~ Right!! :o))

Not feeling well hence not hungry, at all...early night.