Some day's it's just super easy, and today was one of those days! Great w/out. Thank you God! :o)

Some day's it's just super easy, today was one of those days, great w/out!!! :o)

Great day! Great run! Today was easy. Gotta love those days.

Lesson in "Self-Sabatoge"...Cider Mill.......

A friend just happened to pop over unexpectedly wanting to go the FORBIDDEN "Cider Mill", for an 1hr. and 1/2 I tossed it around in my head to go or not to go, back and forth. I finally agreed to go though would have a different approach. Usually I ONLY went to go because I LOVED the cider and YUMMY doughnuts. This time I really focused on  the atmosphere and my lovely company! It worked oddly enough! I walked around, noshed on the most beautiful Honey crisp ever, the cute guy behind the counter gave it to me for free, I asked again, "are you sure" he said " absolutely!" so nice!! ( he was pretty hot if I may say so myself...:o)) we then sat outside watching the ducks, horse rides and busy bees that drove us inside. Had a few small doughnuts and cider and then made like a banana and split:o). VERY soon after I rang my Father to ask if he would like the remainder of the cider and doughnuts, I wanted them as far from me as possible. So off to his house we were to unload the remainder of the stash!! Though it only took maybe 5 minutes from eating a doughnut and I was SICK as a DOG!!! They are sssooooooooo greasy and I never eat anything greasy, EVER, except for last year when I came here and got sick.....really. Long story short, I had BIG plans for today that I put off again because I came home and laid around all day because I was so sick! In the end realized it was my way of sabotaging my success. So no more. I will be up late completing the tasks I so easily Blew Off for a quick bite of yummy doughnuts!! Lesson Learned!

Rest day!! Was DYING for "anything UNhealthy" so I.......

basically ate "way too many veggies, still over-eatting, I just wanted to stuff my emotions, so I did!!! I was not up for "trying to figure out why I was emotionally eatting". I just didn't feel like it frankly. Which is what got me here in the first place. I have DECIDED to NOT beat myself up as I usually do and be Happy that I did NOT binge on Sugar, my hands down FAVE!!  So no self-hatred makes for a nice change & nice day! :o)

Struggling with organization- which is a direct paralle to my life.

As I continue to clarify my goals I notice that I am constantly sabatoging myself with clutter. I have read enough and common sense tells me I need to eliminate the clutter in my life to really get to the bottom of my issuses and what has kept me fat. My car which is usually pretty neat looks like a bomb went off and it irrates me to no end to open my door everyday, so.............tomorrow is "clean my car day". The thing is I KNOW I will feel soo much better after, interesting how I postpone things I KNOW while MAKE me feel better. Just acknowledging is a great starting point....

Getting "healthy" means 'Releasing' unhealthy food AND unhealthy people.....

As I am determined to end the vicious cycle of my past I realize how important it is to let go of certain foods, for me, SUGAR  is at top of my list. As far as people, it's people who are negative in any way.  I have such huge aspiration's for my life and it's SO easy to get pulled down by others', not on purpose of course, it's just them being themselves...no judgement at all.  I see so clearly how easy I can get into a rut and considering I am just coming into a month I need to be supported by family and friends, and *facebook Friends* everyone has helped immensely. (Thank you!!) Though now I have begun to "let go" of people who do not share my desire to become better, in every facet of my life and most of all those who love and create DRAMA.  I want happy, healthy, successful people, friends, coworkers by my side. It's hard!! I have a few people in my life that want to stay unhappy, unhealthy and complain about everything and it just brings me down...... I want and desire amazing people to walk by my side, I suppose you need to "let go of the old in order to bring in the new."

So as the Jefferson's say....."I'm movvvingg on up!!!"