My experience....in a nutshell. My weight was never an issue until I was sexually abused at a hospital prior to surgery as a child, later I was molested as a teenager, as an adult I was raped. As a result I have had serious 'Body Issues' when I was thin I was HURT, when I was FAT I was SAFE, it was my protection, my insulation and shield from Pain. Yo Yo dieting has been my life... I want my Life back and I would love for you to come along for the journey...
Monday, January 31, 2011
Have been in the Pits- BAD!!! 2 pds. from monthly goal screwed with my mind - BAD!!! Have some "damage control" to do, great am w/out, back on track mentally, and physically, stopped w/out for 5 days, so unlike me, FINALLY!!! This was a 'Ruff' one, challenged me to my core- started feeling really good, always been a recipe for disaster so my eyes are WIDE OPEN for the next time. I find it "really uncomfortable" recieveing any kind of attention, this alarm goes off in my head to "Stop it" well eatting garbage and not exercising does just that!!. Reading and looking at God for guidance, SOO OVER THIS Weight stuff!!! Want to just be Happy! =)
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Embarassed to say but missing my goal messed with me all day and night! Well, I should say I "let it" mess with me!! Came home and ate crap I would NEVER eat because I was so disappointed ~ HOW DUMB!!! I know! Doing my work to try and not be so doggone Hard on myself....it's such a waste. Have a new plan of action, set new, clearly defined goals AND rewards which I have not done ~ at all.....silly in it self. Need to CELEBRATE my Achievements! Starting Monday I will.:o)
Friday, January 14, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
UGH!!! Whenever I get close to a goal I always sabatoge myself, im 2 pds. away from current goal and have had 2 days of craziness!!! Gave my sister my scale for the next week or two. Planning a nice long run if I can find some sidewalks that are clear, that always seems to get my head back on track.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Friday, January 7, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Only slept from 11pm until 1am... then wide awake, finally just got up and began my day instead of tossing all night, hence no w/out. Decided to take andvantage of feeling so exhausted and began a liver cleanse since I was able to rest all day. Eager for bedtime to say the least!! :o) Excited for tomorrow's w/out!
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
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