My experience....in a nutshell. My weight was never an issue until I was sexually abused at a hospital prior to surgery as a child, later I was molested as a teenager, as an adult I was raped. As a result I have had serious 'Body Issues' when I was thin I was HURT, when I was FAT I was SAFE, it was my protection, my insulation and shield from Pain. Yo Yo dieting has been my life... I want my Life back and I would love for you to come along for the journey...
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Sick as a Dog, Day 3- Toilet ~here I come.....
I should have known better, whenever "I" begin a cleanse, this big, I always lose my desire to eat, it's more of an emotional thing. NOT GOOD when your doing a detoxl like mine! So have been having MAJOR detoxs pangs, for relief I went to work and did an Infared Sauna, then found myself running upstairs, only to vomit 5x's. Holy Cow-JUST made it!. I must say I felt better after. Then I gave myself a colonic (the best way to get the largest amount of toxins out of your body and I had them coarsing thru my veins). Soon after I was feeling better but still exhausted. I have been struggling to get anything inside my body and am focusing on getting water and electrolytes in my system at this point. Emergen-C does the trick quicly, I was out of cocunut water, :o( I have been resting all day & struggling to stay awake to ensure a good nights sleep. Going to lay off the off the supplements for a day to try and get my appetite going... tomorrow will be better, I just know it....
Monday, September 13, 2010
Not my IDEAL first day...
Was up til 3:00 am after a long weekend in Ann Arbor at school and was wiped out so my body resisted any thought of moving this am. I tend to get emotionally exhausted right before anything "big" and putting up pic's of me in a bikini for the world to see was BIG!! So have been resting and nibbling on veggies as I have no appetite, it should return tomorrow once I am over the shock of what I did! LOL!!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Tomorrow is the BIG DAY!!!!!
Well here it is to the many who have been patiently waiting!! Thank you !!
It's Sunday night and I am excited to finally get this going, onward and upward! I am determined to release my past, no more being FAT!! Having no judgement, being overweight just does not serve me and my Higher Purpose. I am so READY so here it goes...........
It's Sunday night and I am excited to finally get this going, onward and upward! I am determined to release my past, no more being FAT!! Having no judgement, being overweight just does not serve me and my Higher Purpose. I am so READY so here it goes...........
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